After 6 years... I used again.
Recently, after 6 years without using it, I bought somr ecstasy pills. In total, including the redose, I took around 280mg.
I was alone in a hotel. About 30 minutes after the first dose, I started feeling the effects: blurry vision and a lighter body sensation. I put on my headphones, played some music, covered myself with the blanket, lay in bed scrolling on my phone and texting some strangers in Snapchat. What a felling....
Then, out of nowhere, I suddenly realized I was in a completely different position on the bed, listening to a random podcast and looking at different things on my phone… and 3 hours had passed.
I got scared, got up, took a shower, but this happened another 3 times during the night.
I was worried that I might have done something stupid while blacked out, but when I checked my camera roll, I saw that I had been taking screenshots and photos the whole time, documenting the trip. There are things I have zero memory of, but they’re all recorded.
What I want to discuss is this time dissociation, recent memory loss, and thought looping. Does this only happen with high doses?
I don’t remember experiencing anything like this 6 years ago.
Anyway, I’d love to hear your thoughts and experiences.
Thanks!