HM and Emotional Abuse
Good Afternoon - i need some advice or at least some validation. Sorry, my typing is off. HM attack
I am feel like my migraines are making me crazy or rather i'm at point where i feel like i have a family member actively trying to gaslight me and/or denies my migraine.
I've had a past history with my attacks and bad boyfriend especially on that called me a "genetic reject." My older brother who is an adult pretty much reinforced that idea and has consistently claimed that i am making these headaches up for attention and "drama.." In my mind, what 6 year old makes up HM and wtf would would i make up attention like this.
I pretty much has a breakdown over my headache yesterday while my big brother was out of the room. I was beating myself up and upset and them my big brother inserts himself into my frustration screaming at me. How it's ALL my fault. I asked him to please stop yelling, that he didn't really understand what was going on. It then turned into a pitty part for my upset brother. He was yelling at me because i was in pain, i was hurting and yelling and frustrated. It was my fault i was emotional and that this entire situation was my fault. I asked him to please stop yelling and leave me a lone while i get read to go upstairs to bed. He kept screaming. He finished my conversations for me with another family member (which i asked him not to do). He screamed at me about that to. I finally said that this was abusive behavior - i'm in pain and i asked you to leave me for 5 - 10 minutes. He skept yelling. My other family member was yelling to back off.
I've spent the last 16 hours or so mostly alseep. My other family member lost their wallet so i've been trying to find it despite not being able to see or walk or well feel my right hand very well. I am more and more feel like i'm crazy and that there's something bad or wrong i've done.
I know i'm not making up my HM but right now it kind of wish i was. I just tired of being the bad guy and tired of being yelled at and/or abused because my migraines are apparently all my fault.
I just need a hug. Any advice on dealing with a family members that no only denies your Hemiplegic Migraines but goes out of their way to make it worse?