Where the hell do I get help for a paraphilia??
20f
Before you read: this is not about children. Also, no, I don’t have OCD around this paraphilia. I have been consistently fixated on it since I was 14 or so. I regularly consume sexual content about it (it’s legal to watch in the US, but not to film [for some reason]). Ive accepted it and am actually very candid about it with myself.
As I grow older, I am having less shame about it. I used to have intense, intense shame and anxiety about it, to the point of being suicidal. But since the shame is wearing off, the thoughts are now getting uncomfortably real. I have thoughts of acting it out etc.
I would also need help with porn addiction. It’s primarily how I engage with the paraphilia.
Every sexual dysfunction treatment I see in my city is for dudes who are rapists or sex addicts. I can’t find anything for paraphilias.
What kind of certifications should I look for when looking for a provider? Any particular kinds of therapy that would be effective for what I have? Does therapy exist for what I have?
Thank you for reading. I’m really wanting to be done with this compulsive behavior.