u/East_Perspective8798

I just need to vent somewhere so my poor mom can get a break lol

For background story, I let my old trainer pick me out a horse when I was 16. I bought what she said would do best for me. 16 year old me bought this horse and paid for board. Well, the horse I bought turned out to be insane. I put her training. After a year of me paying for everything, my mom felt bad and helped me out so I’d stop crying and I could enjoy horses again.

Fast forward 12 years, I bought a horse from a very reputable trainer near me. My trainer said she trusted her and if she said a horse was good, it was good. I bought my mare a little underweight and no muscle. I got her weight up and got her fit. She went from being calm to being very hot. We put her in training for 90 days. Well, she bucked me off. I called the vet out to rule out ulcers and did a general lameness test. Nothing wrong with her. I just sat in my car and cried one day. Decided I didn’t want the wrong horse again and I wanted to enjoy my time. I sold her to a home where her forwardness will be appreciated and she will have a job.

Now, my husband wants me to have another horse and he’s been encouraging me to look for a horse for Mother’s Day. I found one that sounds absolutely perfect and the videos I’ve seen of her are what I’m looking for. I’m going this weekend to see her. But I’m just not excited. I’ve been listening to people tell me what I need and what horses to buy my whole life. I don’t want to be in the same position with a wrong horse.

I don’t know if I trust the wrong people or if I just shouldn’t own horses. I don’t want to listen to anyone anymore about what horses to buy. I tried to tell my husband but he said I needed my trainers approval before buying a horse I want. I don’t feel very listened to with anyone. I’m not very good at being assertive with my thoughts and feelings.

Anyways, thanks for reading my rant.