Mentally and spiritually drained
Keeping this vague on purpose. I was Orthodox for close to 2 years but was only chrismated recently. I left after a few months because I felt like an outsider in my parish and I had many disagreements with the church. I faded away and went to another church that was not Orthodox instead. No one reached out to me for months, only the priest did and that was ok. But when I see the parishioners they try to guilt me into coming back and many people were upset about my absence. I didn’t mean to cause any harm to anyone because of this, it has brought me great anxiety. Towards the end my experience within Orthodoxy turned sour and it was so spiritually draining being there and when I think about it I get spiritually drained again. At least I still have God, and the rosary has been helpful
EDIT: I want to make clear I have nothing against anyone in the church. My parish is full of genuinely kind people and I love them dearly. But I just can’t be Orthodox. I am so sorry for the way I left