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I'm in my first year of college and have started to struggle because of personal issues. I have this bad habit of twitching my muscles in symmetrical patterns until things feel right, and normally it's very manageable and I'm very used to it since I've been doing it since I was a kid. It would get a bit more noticeable during stressful periods, but right now, it's almost unbearable. I'm constantly rolling my shoulders to the point of soreness and bitting down until my teeth ache.
Along with this, I've had issues sleeping due to having occasional uncomfortable dreams. These cause me to have a lot of disgusting thoughts during the week, which gives me a lot of stress.
These are all issues I deal with in smaller doses normally, but they've been heightened recently. I've been starting to fall behind in my classes and have started sporadically crying, especially when I try and study, though I have been able to catch up some.
I think I need to talk to a therapist, but I'm scared I'm just overreacting and my issues are something I can work on myself. I think that might sound silly but I've lived with most of these issues my entire life so I feel like that means it's just how I am and there's nothing I can do about them. On top of that, I'm, in general, just very scared to try therapy. I do not like the idea of explaining my problems and past to someone. It makes me very uncommon to think about.
I'm just kind of at a point where I think I should get therapy or talk to a specialist, but I'm too scared and think I could be overreacting. Any advice is appreciated!