Really need advice on my situation.
Might be a little long but honestly really desperate for advice and need to give some background. A few months ago I was traveling internationally by myself and had a horrible panic attack on a plane with few English speakers. (I had to google translate to them that I was panicking) . This was my first flight and I still had a second 8+ hour flight that I now had an intense fear of getting on (in another country) This is entirely due to a fear of being trapped and unable to escape during a panic attack. I missed my second flight because I was so scared, like shaking and throwing up at the airport scared. I basically stranded myself in South Korea for a few days until I forced myself to take my flight.
Since this situation I have had anxiety every day for months because I need to get on a 6 hour flight that is now coming up in 2 months and I mean there’s no way around it I live on an island currently. So yeah, bad situation. My fear is of being trapped, going crazy with nowhere to escape, needing off the plane , etc. Oh and of course now i feel even more trapped being on this island and the only way out is currently one of my worst fears. I really could use some advice. This has been clouding me every day since it happened.
I’ve considered medicine but I really never take anything more than ibuprofen so really not comfortable with taking much, like they tried to give me hydroxyzine at the hospital.. but also I am desperate .