Up all night pregnant in pain and waited to go to the hospital because my fiancé told me too…. (Please any advice or words of comfort)
Tw: spotting, threatened miscarriage, cursing
So I found out I was pregnant probably two weeks ago and my doctor told me it was probably around nine weeks.
I’ve been super excited and obviously emotional. Well, anyway, I was up all night last night in pain. I was in so much pain, and my fiancé told me to wait and see if it got better and then I started spotting.
I’ve been just so sad and so alone. I don’t really have a relationship with my own family, and we only told his cousin and his friends, and only my little sister knows.
So I’ve just been having pains the whole time that I’ve been pregnant and right before the spotting, I was just explaining to him how I was feeling and he automatically tells me to stop worrying, but I’m sitting here in PAIN.
This is just the worst experience in my fucking life, he didn’t even help me walk out to the car or into the hospital and then he fell asleep on the couch while I was in bed, waiting for him to bring me some Tylenol!
(! I DID make it to the hospital but this timeline before arriving there is before arriving there is 9pm-11pm!)
Sometimes I wonder if I'm the asshole because we have an 18-year age gap so some things I expect him to do or click for him, but he also has a brain injury so I feel bad but a lot of the time he blames things on his brain injury.
Like we’ve been planning our engagement looking for rings and just this whole month has been a very sad reality because I’ve realized I don’t know if this is the person that I can have kids with. Let alone I don’t even know if I want to try again like I’m scared. I’m still bleeding and I’m having pain and I just don’t have anyone to talk to.
#amItheasshole #endometriosis #pregnancy