Do I need a therapist, mentor, or life coach?
I’m not really sure where to post this, but I could really use some perspective from people who have been through something similar.
I was recently laid off from my job, and I obviously need to start looking for another one. The strange thing is that I know I’m capable, I have skills, I have things I want to achieve, and I’ve been ambitious and curious for most of my life. But right now, I cannot seem to make myself do anything.
I live with my boyfriend, and he goes to the office during the day. Once he leaves, the entire day feels incredibly long and boring. I find myself with hours and hours of empty time, and instead of using that time to work on my career or learn something, I often end up sleeping during the day for 5–6 hours just to escape the feeling of having such a long day ahead of me.
Then I wake up feeling horrible because I’ve wasted the day.
And the cycle repeats.
What scares me is that this doesn’t feel like the person I used to be. I used to have so much zeal. I genuinely enjoyed learning things, building things, chasing goals and figuring out what I wanted to do next. Now I have goals and ambitions in my head, but almost no drive to actually pursue them.
I know I need to apply for jobs, but even opening LinkedIn or working on applications feels exhausting. Sometimes I wonder if I actually don’t want to work anymore, or if I’m just so mentally stuck that I can’t get myself to want anything.
I also wonder how much my environment is contributing to this. When my boyfriend leaves for work, I’m basically alone at home for the entire day with no external structure. Maybe I’m not getting the same “kick” that comes from having somewhere to be, people around me, deadlines, etc.
I don’t want to stay like this. I know I have a lot of potential, and I want to get myself out of this zone.
I’m not looking for someone to tell me to “just be productive.” I’m genuinely trying to understand what’s happening to me and how I can start moving forward again.