Need some uni advice (ASAP🙏)
I need some advice or words of wisdom or something, i dont know. I’m currently a freshman at my dream university and honestly, it sucks.
My passion from highschool isnt the same anymore and I dont have the same drive to get things done just as i used to. Honestly, its not because the classes are harder but i find it so tiring to get things done. I don’t know what i want anymore which, i thought would be the school that im in. Its literally the top university of my country and yet, i just dont feel happy for some reason.
The course im taking is just some random course that seems practical because i didnt like anything else. I had a teacher tell me to just take it because it would give me an “edge” post-grad when im going to further studies. I also feel so pressured to do well when, graduating with certain achievements should be pleasing for me but honestly, its just so i dont let down other people’s expectations of me. Hahaha its probably because of my overachieving-self from highschool.
I dont know why but, i also dont really like the friends i made or the people in my course. I feel like i cant relate, cant seem to enjoy my time with them, and i feel like theyre just really boastful and annoying.
Its honestly funny that im writing this given that im cramming for an exam which, i had a lot of time to study for but didnt do because i didnt feel like it. Ive been in this slump for months and i wanna really do something about it but my body cant seem to react the same way. Im presented with DAYS of no school and yet, I feel like i freeze and panic when trying to start and everything just goes wrong.
I feel like im wasting so much time and im tired and sad about everything. Honestly, i wouldnt even know what to answer if someone asked me what would make me happy. Ive thought about getting into a relationship, but even my love life is at a rough patch, hahahaha. Never even been in a relationship, but it looks so nice to be in (id like to be the person who believes in true love!).
This is kinda long, so sorry to those who read this far. Im kinda going through a lot of emotions simultaneously and i wanted someone to hear me out.
Thanks:)