Placed A Deposit On A Schnauzer, Conflicting Feelings
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I just placed a deposit on this sweet girl but I am having conflicting feelings about it. To start, I had originally intended on getting a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel. I've wanted this breed since I was a kid and did tons of research and vetted breeders for months until I finally found and chose a breeder who had an upcoming litter. I waited through pregnancy and birth and was so excited when their due date came! However, the breeder, who had initially been so communicative with me, was no longer responding to my emails. I emailed him, then a couple weeks pass and I email him again. No response. I wait another week and finally decide to look through available Cavie puppies from other breeders. Then out of curiosity, I looked in another breed that I enjoy and used to own one of: the Miniature Schnauzer. I come across this adorable panda-looking baby and I could not stop thinking about her and I was having to hold back my VERY strong impulse to place a deposit on her RIGHT THEN and there. I mean, how can you not?! Look at her! Plus all of the parent's info checked out, health testing was done, great reviews, etc. But I still wanted to hold out for my dream dog from my dream breeder.
After fighting with myself to not impulsively place a deposit on this girl, I could not take it anymore and decided to send another email to the Cavalier breeder in the hopes of *finally* getting an update, because if he didn't respond THAT DAY I was going to get that little Schnauzer puppy who was tugging at my heart strings. I send the follow-up email asking him if the litter was still available and if not, to please let me know. Finally, a response comes. But there were no puppies available for me from this litter. I felt completely gutted.
I go through the motions of not wanting to even try to get a dog anymore, thinking "what if this isn't a good time to get a dog?", and just feeling completely defeated and sad. But I keep coming back to this Miniature Schnauzer baby's picture. So I take the plunge and message the breeder. We talk back and fourth, I answer her questions and she answers mine. She then approves my application and I place the deposit. But now I am worried that I may have made a huge mistake rushing in to place a deposit on a puppy of a different breed than the one I've been wanting for so many years and finally have the opportunity to get. I do love a Schnauzer, but they are higher energy than I really want and I wanted to get the most chill, people-oriented lap dog possible because I have young children and a very serious fear of dog's potentially biting them, so a Cavalier seemed like the perfect breed for us and one that I felt most comfortable introducing to my children.
Am I just too deep in the disappointment of not getting my dream dog breed from the breeder I chose to see the perfection of this puppy? Will I forever regret it if I go through with this sale instead of finding another Cavalier breeder and getting my dream breed?
Advice appreciated.
TL;DR: I put a deposit on a puppy of a different breed than the one I originally intended on getting and am now worried I made a mistake and will have regrets.