FAO Professional Writers - Ever Feel A Little Silly?
OK to a lot of people this is going to feel like a humblebrag post but I swear it isn't meant to.
I'm actually doing quite well so far this year, the best since I started down this road. All my specs are selling, I have a few things in development, and I was just in a writer's room for a big, popular streamer show. I'm currently writing a treatment for an idea I sold where the option fee was much higher than usual.
And yet I can't shake this feeling that it's, like, stupid? I make my own hours, I do what I want when I want, and I spend all day writing thousands of words about people who don't exist, stories that probably will never see the light of day.
I wonder maybe if it's a lack of structure? I usually write in the mornings then hit a wall around lunch and will do something else, like exercise or walk or socialise or go to a museum etc. But I dunno I feel like not a real person if that makes sense?
It's not imposter syndrome - I've earned this, and I'm good at it. Maybe it's just getting used to the idea that this is a real job and this is how it works. Do we have to suffer through our days for things to feel real?
Welcome any insights from writers a little more long in the tooth!