Senior 1 and can’t picture myself doing this much longer
I feel like there are so many invisible expectations and I constantly feel like with this new title, my team just automatically thinks I have upper-level senior capabilities. Maybe it’s all in my head, but I am really struggling with feeling stupid and not where my team wants me everyday. I give walkthroughs and review to the best of my knowledge, which is still decently limited given I have been working at the firm less than 2 years. I ask questions, but often feel like it just leads to my team thinking I am even more incapable than what they thought.
I have truly loved this job and have felt like I was a great addition to the team before (even got differentiating on my reviews last cycle), but now I feel like I am behind the curve. On top of that, I feel like I am struggling to keep up with all the moving pieces, even though I am only staffed technically 40-45 per week this busy season. So I do not even feel like I have the right to say I’m busy, especially to those seniors doing 55+ hours. I did want to stay a little longer and really would not want to leave my team during busy season, but I am really struggling with wondering if they would be better off.