I know this might sound like an odd question, but for as long as I’ve been working, I have committed so much of myself and so much care to what I do.
Working with managers to restructure and organise things for efficiency and the wellbeing of my coworkers. Trying to boost morale, doing everything I can, and trying to leave each place better than how I found it.
Predictably, this is always for places that wouldn’t care if I disappeared the very next day. My coworkers care, and they’re the people I work hard for, especially when managers neglect to do their jobs. However, it never reflects in raises, they take the credit, if I so much as call out sick with the flu they threaten my position, etc etc.
I care about what I do. It’s part of my nature. Each time I try to stop, each time I recognise how it eats up my mind and my health, I try to hold back. I can’t stop from feeling that pull to help where I know I can actively make a change.
I just need advice on how to let go of that instinct. Or, maybe not lose it entirely, and instead pick and choose when to apply it. It’s something that feels so intrinsically a part of me and who I am, but it’s never been sustainable.