u/Emeraldandthecity

I just completed my first year, these are my fall semester and spring semester grades. I know the main grades that matter are my foundations of behavioral science grade (B+), intro to public policy grade (A-), and the grade I will get in Econ which I am taking next semester.

I feel embarrassed that I only have A’s in my easy classes (engagements and ENWR). And I did come into UVA interested in pre-med which I eventually learned was not the path for me after I received a D- in intro to bio. I am retaking that class next semester though, not only was it not for me but I was also just a bad student fall semester (partying and all that). I am confident that I could get like maybe a B if I retake it with everything I know about the class now.

My current extracurriculars involve political discourse kind of clubs and I also have an exec position in a writing club. Unfortunately no summer internship though.

Do I have a decent shot at getting into Batten?

I’m taking a break from them. Don’t get me wrong I absolutely love these things and they’ve changed my life for the better. I went from being an out of control college freshman party girl to getting my shit together and becoming a straight A student. Obviously I don’t attribute that entirely to the shrooms, the first few times I did them I didn’t have that drastic of a behavioral change because intrinsically I didn’t want to change. Once I wanted to change I think they were a part of my growth process.

But anyways this past week after my roommate moved out and I had about a week before moving out and going home to my parents I thought “fuck it, why not go on a bender?” So I paid for about 6.2 grams in total and did them over the course of a few days. The guy I get them from gets these really strong and potent ones so 6.2 grams is a lot more than it seems.

Anyways, I proceeded to have a couple of nice trips before eventually having a more scary trip and then slowly becoming numb. Nothing was bringing me satisfaction anymore. Everyday I would just wake up and eat, be lustful, and do shrooms. At one point after my trip I felt nothing at all. I was so bored I just started ripping tape off my walls and staring blankly at my room.

The next day was even worse. I took 2.5 grams which is a very excessive amount for me since usually 1.7 does the trick just fine. Nothing happened and I even fell asleep which I’m usually afraid of doing on shrooms because I’ve heard it produces very vivid dreams.

When I woke up it felt like any happy chemical I had in my brain had been drained out of me. It was so hard to think a happy thought. And all the bad thoughts I usually have on a day to day basis that usually feel so fleeting and manageable felt so heavy. It kind of reminded me of how people describe the comedown period after doing ecstasy. Like I had used up all the serotonin and now I was left with nothing. I think at one point I was thinking about jumping out of my dorm window but not really in a serious way just kind of playing with the idea I guess. I just kept crying all day long. And I threw up 3 times.

The next morning though I thankfully felt much better. I took care of myself and gave myself plenty of rest and hung out with my friends.

Idk why I’m really posting this, again shrooms are awesome. But too much of any substance can be really awful and I just want to share my experience for anybody who is thinking of doing something similar

Did this guy just use chat GPT to rizz me up??

Will Batten reject me based on these grades?