I really need smn to convince me that my bf isn't cheating on discord
I have pretty bad trust issues because I've been cheated on before, so I know I might be overthinking this. My boyfriend has a friend on Discord whose name/username sounds very girly, and he's a femboy. My boyfriend already explained that he's actually a guy and even gave me proof, so I believed him and stopped being suspicious about that part.
What still bothers me is how differently my boyfriend acts when this specific friend messages him while he's screen sharing with me. With other friends, he's usually fine with me seeing their messages. But with this friend, sometimes I can see the notification pop up, and then he'll turn off screen share to answer the message.. maybe? Other times, he won't turn off screen share, but he also won't answer the message at all.
I asked him about it once, and he immediately showed me the conversation. From what I could see, it seemed normal, but he scrolled through it pretty quickly. He then got upset because he felt like I didn't trust him.
I understand why he'd feel that way, and I genuinely don't want to accuse him of anything. But I also can't ignore that his behavior seems noticeably different with this particular friend.
It's gotten to the point where I can't properly enjoy my time with him because I'm constantly thinking about it. I even had thoughts about wanting to hack his Discord just to see everything, which I know isn't healthy and I wouldn't actually do. It just shows how badly this uncertainty is affecting me.
I genuinely WANT to trust him and work on my trust issues instead of letting my past ruin my current relationship. So I'm wondering: is this just normal privacy that I'm overthinking, or is his different behavior with this specific femboy friend worth questioning? or am I just to much?