The biggest sin
There is a pain in being lonely in this world that fills the gaps silently. The feelings like quicksand, so easy to lose yourself
On days like this I feel that pain
Where I wish to give my love and to receive
Is it greed? To want more and more?
Id like to think it isnt. It indeed is a need
It feels as if life is a song that will never be finished. There is no instrument that can play the melodies I carry. Yet, I hear them everyday - in the empty space around me
This feels as if I am never quite full
A glutton who craves for more and more
Id like to think Im not. But I am
In the mornings a sky so plain
Envy in my blood - I wish to fill it with my pain
Life, filled with passion, my heart desires. I search the world to see who holds it
Its loud and unpleasant
However, I must find it
I search the eyes of those around me
Wrath taking over - more and more
This it is. But indeed I still need
I travel alone looking for a puzzle piece that does not exist. Still I must make it and use it for my own.
You might think I'm crazy
My pride is on the line
But is it? If it indeed feels like a need?
I learned how to fill my pain
A variation of pleasures at my door
Others, just like me, on the hunt for more
Taking, giving, receiving and so delicious
Is this lust? Because I want more
I would like to think it isn't. But deep down I know.
At last, I am tired, I do not scour.
I lay in bed and wither away, I have given up. Lonely as it may be
I am a sloth, I shall not move
This isnt rest, I need more and more
This is the pain of loneliness
The biggest sin on Earth