Take the leap or stay?
Hi y'all-
I am a few weeks out from my move for the Netherlands.
I have been researching this for years and always dreamed about getting out of the country. I'm grateful that I have a remote job that I will be able to continue if I make the move. I don't have quite enough money to feel comfortable with moving without having housing secured. I have been working with a makelaar but she hasn't found an apartment for me yet and its getting close.
If I chose to go through with the move, my plan has been: find temporary housing for a few months in the Netherlands and see if I can secure a lease- if I can't, I would move to Albania and live there while saving more to try again in the Netherlands after a year.
Now, the thought of taking myself and my dog abroad and leaving my family behind is making me feel sick. I feel like I'm about to make a huge mistake.
I'm considering cancelling everything and staying another year in order to save more and apply for Mexican citizenship, though my right to citizenship comes from my great grandmother and therefore will take a lot of effort to obtain.
My fear with staying is that I've already waited so long to move, and as I get older so do my parents. I also don't know if I'll be able to keep this remote job forever, but right now it would be a perfect way to live somewhere.
Not sure exactly what I'm looking for by posting this. Just feeling really torn.