I have BPD and it's been a horrible journey testing different medications since october, having anxiety attacks and holding on to vaping for dear life, chainsmoking for weeks. Now the meds have finally stabilized me. I started to smoke way less. During those anxiety periods I smoked every 30min nonstop. Now I smoke 4-5x a day.
And finally, I got up and got my copy of Allen Carr.
Whole thing is done. I've been secretly vaping for 3 and a half years and I am done. I don't wanna be a slave to this anymore, and on top of it all I am autoimmune so it's just the dumbest thing I ever did, trying a vape. I started because my ex-bf smoked, tried it, liked it, and he gifted me one. Worst gift ever.
Today while home alone I poured all of my nicotine shit on my bed and started sorting.
Because of a post I saw here and knowing myself, I will feel safer if I still have at least one vape available even if I'm not gonna smoke. So i got that one, put it in a box and wrapped it with silvertape. Good f*ckn luck if I ever try to open that.
My safety net will be the chewing gum, but I will avoid it like the plague.
Everything else is on the trash, hidden between other trash, outside.
May the odds be ever in our favor.