Strange experiences after my NDE
So when I was 5 I drowned in a pool in San Antonio. I remember jumping in the pool and feeling like something was wrong, but doing it anyway. I will be honest never was taught how to swim. So jumping into the pool was a mistake that I still can’t understand why I did it. I remember the struggle to stay afloat and making it to those red and white bouy things that they have separating the free swim and the side where people swim laps. Then I go down and feel peace, like something that is akin to prefect serenity. I will say I have never felt like that again but it was like floating but yet not. Blackness yet not all encompassing if that makes sense. It was like being in a blanket, then the pain came rushing in and I’m jolted into burning light and just feeling wrong. I wanted to go back to the feeling but knowing I can’t. I see a man over me and feel the water exploding out my mouth. It was a feeling of unrelenting pain and fear.
Now for the experiences I’ve been having since then, it’s like I get these moments of heightened awareness and anxiety mixed with that feeling of Déjà vu. I have never been able to express it to anyone before. I don’t know if what I’m experiencing is delusion, paranoia, or just an anxiety attack. But, I deal with Déjà vu almost constantly and I’m at my breaking point at this point. Just wanted to get this off my chest. If anyone is also experiencing this I’d love to hear your thoughts and suggestions to help me.