After many months of joining Reddit, this is my first post this might be a long post. So kindly bear with me I need advice and I’m also venting at the same time. Let me start from the beginning, so last year I got accepted to a university which majority of the pre-reqs are online, but I only had one semester for my pre-reqs; however, life end up happening my spouse of eight years end up having an affair and brought a child into the world. Which distraught me because he was not much of a help to our child that has special needs, and I felt like my world completely shattered so I wasn’t able to complete my first semester only with just two courses. So throughout the fall semester, I was able to retake the two courses. I passed one for the fall semester which also continues into the spring semester. Bear with me the school I attend is a little bit weird on how they enter into semesters. I only had two courses remaining for nutrition and foundation. So I was informed by my program mentor just to stay focused on the nutrition and the foundation could be transferred to my clinical term, which is pretty much understandable right? Since the nutrition was the second attempt for the fall semester I failed l the OA(exam) twice on the same semester. I completed remediation did live cohorts did all the resources that I could do to pass for the upcoming third attempt. During at that time I was working with my previous professor who also had my new upcoming professor on live remediation to see if I’m qualified to take the third attempt of the OA. The questions my previous professor asked me was not even related to the textbooks or any resources from the virtual library from which is provided from the university. So I had to book 3 sessions with my new transferred professor. let’s call her professor F, now professor F was amazing. She was encouraging. She actually helped me a little bit more during our three live remediation sessions. She boost my confidence. She even witnessed my critical, thinking to the answers to the questions before our third and final live remediation during our second remediation I requested for the OA because that’s what you have to do in order to take your OA. I noticed for a few days now, let me remind you, this is two weeks towards the end of my semester. I noticed for a few days after our second live remediation that she did not approve the OA when I informed her during our final live remediation. Professor F, stated that the reason why she hasn’t approved the OA is because I have been transferred to a new professor. Her reason was the fact that she doesn’t have a multi state nursing license to the state where I reside that’s why she couldn’t continue on as my professor. I was a bit in a shock since I know that I had one week left towards the end of my semester. So after my life remediation, I contacted the new professor (professors H) via email that I was transferred to, or she was transferred to me, however it went. I contacted her on Monday, which was four days left until the end of my semester. I informed her within the email that I did do my live remediation with both of my previous professors. I did three of them before I was transferred to her. I completed everything that was required and she replied the next day. She emailed me stating the reason why she did not accept the approval for my OA. Although she noticed that I failed the OA twice before I was transferred to her. She asked to book a live session with her which I agreed to because I knew, and I felt that I was ready to take the OA. I’M VERY INTUITIVE I CAN READ SOMEONE’S VIBE WHETHER IT’S PHYSICALLY OR VIRTUALLY. ANYWAYS, AS WE WERE GOING THROUGH THE LIVE REMEDIATION, SHE ONLY STATED TO ME THAT SHE HAD 15 MINUTES NORMALLY IT’S 45 MINUTES BECAUSE SHE WAS SQUEEZING ME IN REGARDING HER TIME SO WE DID ABOUT SIX QUESTIONS PLUS A BOWTIE Question. This is where I felt she was so off so when she decided to give me a bowtie question because before our life session, she asked me what areas do I need help with. I informed her.SATA and bowties, so on the final question, she decided to give me a bowtie question however the question didn’t appear as it would to an exam or an EAQ. Professor H only said it verbally that she will give me a bowtie. She only stated the symptoms and the diagnosis. Mind you I am a visual type of person. So I kind of noticed of what she was asking me and then I would pacifically ask her. Can she tell me what the actions are? I believe she misunderstood what I stated and she said oh, I cannot give you that here. I am thinking to myself. I’m not asking you to give me the answer. I’m asking you to list me what the actions are so I can choose which one of the four or five actions it is. I felt she was very off in a way at first. When the time had ran out, she was like oh I apologize but we don’t have enough time. You only answered three out of six questions. I stated OK but don’t forget the time that you had to squeeze me in so that’s why we didn’t have enough time. So she was unsure of passing me because she claimed she didn’t want to get into trouble so she wanted to book another session which is the final day of my semester. When she had asked me this, my intuition was telling me no not to book another session with her, but I didn’t listen to my intuition and I just said yes let’s do another session tomorrow. I booked an early session with her cause I told her I wanted to complete my nutrition. So that I can transfer into my clinical term.
She was all excited saying oh yay she gave me a time that was good for her because that’s the only time she kind of had available. And the next day I end up waking up four hours before our session kind of did a little review before our session. Then she emailed me one hour to our session stated that it’s too early for her because I have a a different time zone so she wanted to book it for an hour after which I agreed as well. When we started the live remediation, she acted like she was extremely hopeful that she was going to approve me for my way during all the 18 questions I probably missed about three questions. In the middle of the questions, she was also asking me about deficiencies to certain nutrition. There was two. I probably wasn’t aware of which I think is normal for a nursing student. And instead of being more understandable, she made it seem like I was completely incompetent, which is a red flag for me as a student. After all the completed questions and I only miss three out of the 18 questions. She was still unsure, and she stated to me that she would have to call her colleagues to see if she’s making the right decision in order to approve the OA and I was extremely hopeful, knowing that she would approve my always since I only missed three out of the 18 questions. Within 10 minutes after our session, she ended up calling me and stated to me that based on her decision and what she felt like claiming that I was not ready to take the OA. Also, she stated that she know that I’m disappointed regarding her decision. And I’m thinking to myself what made you think that I wasn’t ready after doing two sessions with you knowing that today is my final day of my semester. I am telling you when I know something is off. I know something was off with Professor H, I was extremely upset. I didn’t hang up the phone on her although I should have, but I did not. I was livid and. Disappointed throughout the whole entire day. What made the situation even worse later on throughout the day, she emailed me stating that she knows that I’m upset whatever whatever I replied back to her that I will be withdrawing from the program because of her decision. Let me inform you that it was required for me to take a term break because I couldn’t pay out-of-pocket the remaining balance for my current semester. professor H stated that when I come back within a few weeks that she would like to go over a few things with me and I kindly had to tell her regarding the term break that it will take me three months so how are you willing to help me with that when I may not even have you as a professor so you want me to stay back and not move on to clinical so that I can continue my Nursing journey. I did informed my program mentor and professor F who I loved dearly they both were very encouraging, and I also stated to them I appreciate all that they’ve done. Of course, my PM who did reach out back to me she did stated that she thinks maybe because I am upset of the professor’s decision that I shouldn’t think to irrationally regarding my decision to withdraw from the program. It took me literally 10 years to start nursing school and for the professor to come up with his irrational decision because I was only transferred to her within six days before the end of my semester.
I am seeking advice and guidance, I truly feel like I just want to quit overall perhaps start a different field than the Nursing I do know and I’ve always felt like my calling is Nursing. But because of the major setbacks that I always have, I just feel like maybe I need to pursue a different field or a different career apart from Nursing tell me what you guys think. Am I truly being irrational!
Btw Professor H looks nothing like her picture from her contact information. The picture she inserted is from perhaps 30 years ago and she looks more like she’s about 65 with gray hair. I get it she wants to appear as she once was ( no shade).