u/Equivalent_End6822

how is everyone doing? : )

hello I’d like to share my story from friday. I took 120ug while my girlfriend was tripsitting me, we smoked lots of blunts (even before i dropped acid) and we just watched youtube and had a great time.

my gf was pretty sleepy because of the amount we smoked and she went to bed

i tought that maybe another 120ug might be pretty fun, i mean i got a pretty decent high from the weed and acid, nothing really crazy but also had a nice time with her

eating the other tab was a brave decision😂😂

i took it then smoked 2 blunts and I wanted to take a bath

i started playing balatro in the tub, and I felt the other tab coming up, I felt pretty weird

I started playing balatro and I wanted to lay down in the tub

the moment i lay down, my whole reality changes

it was really hard to recognise anything

i looked at my hands and i couldnt know what I was, everything I saw became one thing, like my hands became one with the mirror on the wall, my legs were one with the water etc

i got out the bathtub because i didnt know what the fuck was happening to me and I knew i had to get out, and somehow I did

after that the next 7 hours were absolutels terrifying, crazy, and something I cant even really explain

all i could do was lay in the bed next to my gf and I couldnt even know where I was, who I was, it just felt like that I’m one with everything, and when I closed my eyes I saw really specific geometry objects spinning around and it was pretty crazy

all i could do was tell myself that this will all pass

at one point i think i died or something, but i dont really remember that part, like i was nothing and everything at once, i had to let go of my whole existence to accept that no matter what i do i cant fight what is happening

its great to be back and have a sense of reality haha

what did i experience? did someone had an experience simular to this?

moral of the story, i cant smoke like a degenerate while doing acid and my actions have consequences hahaha

yesterday i had my 4th trip alone, this was my highest dose yet.

At the peak, it was pretty overwhelming, I had a bad feeling in my body trough the whole time, I was always freezing, when I looked up on the ceiling I saw little aliens staring at me mocking me, and I had eyes that were watching me on my body when I looked down

I had to manually breath a lot of the time, but I knew that any bad feeling I had during thr trip will pass

the whole trip was pretty uncormftable, but I also had lots of fun, I simply realized this dosage was too big and uncontrollable for me

how do people take anything beyond this point? I forgot who I was, couldnt see my room that I was sitting in because it was so distorted

do people enjoy losing control of their trips or I was just holding onto my ego?