u/Equivalent_Network69

I know this is going to sound SO petty, but I’m at a point in my NICU stay where we’re so close to getting home but it still feels so far away. My ex 29+2 baby now 37+1 is doing great, she’s jumped all the hurdles and now it’s just down to getting suck feeds down so we can go home, the issue is I’m really struggling with breastfeeding and I’m starting to feel like it’s me holding up our progress.

I was sitting next to my babies crib crying trying to get her to breastfeed, but tbh we both suck at it right now. In the meantime another mum two babies away is sitting there boasting about how good her baby is doing at breastfeeding and that they both just seem to be naturals. I know she meant no ill intent from this, she was just talking to another mum in the room but it made me cry even harder and feel even worse than I was already feeling.

The NICU we’re in is open plan and there’s no where to go to try and breastfeed in private given we’re still hooked up to monitors and all that. I know this is a me problem, not a her problem but it made me was to instantly disintegrate into the ground and made me consider not breastfeeding at all. I’m just emotional, this has been such a painful journey from start to finish and I just don’t want to be here anymore, I want to be at home with my little one. I don’t want to learn to breastfeed in front of a room full of mums, dads, and nurses. I don’t want to hear how well everyone else is doing. I’ve been here 12 hours a day for the last 8 weeks and even after spending 7 weeks going up and down on respiratory support and finally coming off, it feels like this is the hardest hurdle for me.

So any tips on how to not let other people’s successes in the area you’re sucking at bother you so much? I don’t want to go back into her room now, I feel like a failure.

Hi everyone,
My little one is currently in the NICU on CPAP. We’ve been trying to wean her down, but she keeps having random spells of worked breathing.

I’ve noticed a pattern over the last couple of days: the labored breathing seems to happen almost exclusively when she is positioned on her right side. It settles down significantly when she’s on her back or her left side.

Interestingly, she was off CPAP for a while during her cares this morning and her oxygen sats stayed stable and her breathing actually looked much calmer, which is the opposite of what I expected.

I’m planning to mention this to her doctors, but I wanted to check here first:

Has anyone else noticed their baby struggling more on one specific side?

Could positioning be a genuine factor in why she’s having worked breathing?

I’d love to hear if anyone else has experienced something similar so I feel a bit more confident bringing it up during rounds!