Experienced Dev, cannot bring myself to upskill
Hello,
As the thread title says, I am an experienced dev of many years who cannot bring myself to upskill so I can have wider job options.
I admit that I have burnt out a few years ago and never recovered despite my best efforts.
I took extended time off, made friends with other developers outside of work, participate in online developer communities, review resumes, mentor, and research different engineering concepts when I come across them.
However, I cannot just get myself to physically code anything unless I'm getting paid for it, being challenged, or helping someone. I cannot do it for myself.
I don't think freelancing is the answer cause I need to target certain technologies. Resume-driven development would be unfair for clients.
Same problem exists with passion projects, I need to target certain technologies.
I think working for myself is probably the answer, but I'm not sure if I want to do that. I have my reasons.
Do I still enjoy Software Engineering? I honestly don't know, tbh.
Am I cooked? What should I do?
Thank you for your time.