u/Euphoric-Ease7950

I've been going through something that's hard to explain. I feel almost compelled to reveal everything about my inner world to entities I perceive around me, even when I don't want to. If I keep something private, I feel guilty, like I'm hiding something, even though I know privacy is healthy.

I also find myself unconsciously answering questions in my mind, and sometimes even in my dreams. It genuinely feels like I'm being mentally pulled into conversations I never chose to have.

The hardest part is that I've realized how grounding it feels to have an inner space that belongs only to me. When I lose that sense of privacy, I feel emotionally drained, as if my inner world no longer belongs to me.

Psychologically, it feels like:

• feeling compelled to disclose things I don't want to share
• anxiety or guilt when I keep something private
• blurred emotional boundaries
• feeling responsible for another's emotional state feeling depleted after these experiences
• feeling like my inner life isn't entirely my own anymore

What's especially unsettling is that it feels as though these entities know parts of me that I haven't accepted yet, and even aspects of myself that aren't consciously accessible to me.

For context, I've always been an extremely private person. I struggle with intimacy and tend to keep people at a distance. I also dealt with maladaptive daydreaming for many years, where I'd imagine relationships with people I admired from afar while avoiding real closeness because relationships never felt truly safe. Part of me wonders whether those patterns are somehow connected to what I'm experiencing now.

Has anyone involved in energy work experienced anything like this?

How do you distinguish between an unhealthy energetic attachment, psychological enmeshment or trauma responses, and unresolved emotional patterns?

Most importantly, how do you reclaim your sense of inner sovereignty and the feeling that your inner world belongs to you again?

Heard this from an energy healer I had a session with, in my case it was cannabis but to what extent is this true? Does it make one more prone to psychic attacks? What should be common precautions one should take if they want to continue using? Should I completely give it up or is there a moderate prescription? (I'm guessing that varies from case to case)

Also, if I have been using for a little over 3 years, how much time should I wait until going back to my practise? I wouldn't want to mix the two together (or can I?) How dangerous is it?

Would like to hear personal experiences.

Shouldn't it rise when you're really ready to transcend to the next level? Not saying that it won't bring up some tough stuff to the surface for you to handle but if your coping mechanisms are strong enough, there shouldn't be much of a problem right? So therefore, one must have done the proper inner work (For Eg - CBT, Shadow Work, Discipline, Healthy Relationships and Lifestyle, Unity between thought, speech and action, a strong moral character, enough selfless service, good intentions etc etc.) to avoid this situation right? Because otherwise it can definitely go wrong?

I'm not talking about the exceptional cases where people's lives become totally dysfunctional so please refrain from giving me those examples, I'm already aware of them. Would like to understand why and how that happens though.