Idk lol
(F 22)Hi I’m a student of law in one of the top law schools of the country. I’ve always been pretty introverted , but have always had friends. Something changed during covid tho. I’ve studied in a girls’ school n never really had interaction with boys much. My first proper interaction with guys was through college itself. I can talk pretty well, but lately it just feels like I’ve lost the ability to delve into social settings, especially into group conversations. I’ve been told I’m funny and am interested in good, don’t wanna use “ intellectual” but yes, good quality conversations. Even where I’m interning, my co interns make plans without even bothering to include me. Just reminds me of when I had just changed schools in 11th n didn’t know to bring a black hoodie for the batch photo cos everyone else was in a group n I wasn’t one. My biggest fear in life is I’ll just spend my entire life just watching stuff like this happen n be the average girl in the back of the crowd no one notices. I wanna talk but am too scared of being perceived as desperate. I never was this lonely or sad. Because things are so competitive in my college, talking to new people is also intimidating because you may be perceived as someone with ulterior motivations. Ik it’s genuinely not that big of a deal, n it makes me ashamed that I’m so bad at this. Baat karna bhi nahi aata n FOMO bhi hota hai. lol