Canttttt fuckkkingg studdyyy 😭
Heyy guyss, a quick heads up here, i need ur help.
Basically im facing this prb of not being able to study, its lowkey like not having the courage to and/or i am scared. Its been almost half a year since i am going through this, n its wild cause i was always a topper since school (now ive completed my 12 boards & faced it in 12 mid &end). There was a phase when i started to act that way, its when i used to score a lil too less in 12 classes test (bc i didn't used to study at that time by will, idk why i did this, plus i had an end moment study habit so..), n i was harrassed by my dad a multiple times, both mentally & physically (mostly mentally). Since then i started running away frm studies n i want to really really sit n study for my further course/degree, but i just cant idk why, i keep distracting myself continuously, its like I've forgot how things r done. I asked myself a multiple times why I can't study or dont study, n the only ans i get frm within is - idk, i m scared maybe. For a really long time i kept blaming myself that i m just being lazy or i am being ungrateful for the opportunity i hv, but somhow a thought popped up saying, maybe its bc of the things that hv happend to (as i said above). But the fact is this thing happened while my 10 th boards as well, but it didn't get that bad.
And I don't know whts the exact reason, i just feel like I don't wanna blame the trauma for life, n take it as a reason of why i am the way i am, instead I wanna change n help myself out, but i just don't know how. Pls pls help me ...