Pakdishit and pak the job market
Sorry for the language, sorry in advance for the rant.
I have been unemployed for more than a year. I am seasoned graphic designer, but I have very basic skillset. I was laid-off last year and the job market is really tough especially with ai.
I spent the year trying to upskill while job hunting. Dami ko nasimulan na mga online tutorials, mostly Ui design and motion graphics pero wala akong ni isang natapos. Nakakafrustrate. Di ko kayang magfocus, sobrang hirap. Walang disiplina at parang di ako motivated.
Kapag may interview naman, narealize ko na ang bilis ko pala magsalita. Impulsive yung mga sinasabi ko. Para bang lahat ng idea ine-entertain ng utak ko. So parang sabog ang structure ng statements even in simple answers. I feel so embarrassed.
May mga recruitment process din na di ko ma-comply. Pagsobrang daming instructions, naooverwhelm ako. Natatakot at nagpapanic so I tend to withdraw my application. I come up with shitty excuses.
Im considering to change my career but Im too old and anxious to do so. I tried talking to a psych but prescribed meds are really hard here in the province.
Ayoko na ng ganito.