I just finished the Writathon, killed my MC, and now I’ve hit the most painful wall of my life.
I don’t even know where to start😭😭😭
I just hit 100% on the Writathon (56,250 words). I should be celebrating, right?🙂 I even got Royal Road Premium out of it. But instead, I’m sitting here at 5 AM unable to sleep because I’ve written myself into a corner that feels more like a grave.
I’m currently 10 chapters into Volume 2 of my webnovel. Volume 1 ended at Chapter 37, and these last 10 chapters have been the most emotionally draining things I’ve ever produced. I wrote every single word using the actual pain in my heart. I wanted my readers to feel that same ache in their souls, to feel the weight of the turning point I’ve been building toward.
Then, in Chapter 47, I killed my Main Character. And now? Total silence🤐🤐🤐
The views are there, but the comments are empty. It feels like I poured my blood onto the page and nobody even noticed the stain. Between that silence and the absolute terror of potential plot holes as I try to connect the massive lore I’ve built (12+ new characters planned for Vol 2, complex tactical systems, deep family trauma), I’ve hit a dead end💀
I’m officially going on hiatus today. Partly because I need to prepare for my real life exams, but mostly because I’ve given the story everything I have and I’m empty💀💀💀
Has anyone else experienced this? That specific void where you’ve hit your milestones and made the big shock play, only to realize you have no idea how to bridge the gap to the next arc?
I made a meme about my current state of mind because if I don’t laugh, I’m going to lose it. I'll be back after a while, but man... ⚰️