Spiritual warfare with my own mother
Hello fellow starseeds.
I want to tell you about the pelicular situation between me and my mother.
She is a fervent christian and follows a small community based in New Zealand, altough she lives in Germany and just has very basic english knowledge. Doesn't matter to her, she is fully convinced of 99% of all Christians being wrong when they pray to Jesus Christ.
According to her, the true name to be worshipped is Yahushua Hamashiach and everything else is Satan trying to lure you in his realm. Maybe some of you heard about that.
She is so fervent about her faith that western psychology considers her as a paranoid schizophrenic, she went to the mental hospital a dozen times and always ended up stopping her medication (her determination is truly impressive). After her divorce from my dad she ended up in a homeless shelter, where she lives in a big room with almost no furniture.
She will confront everyone, strangers, family and friends about her beliefs and will get easily agitated and then aggressive.
Then I am a practioner of yoga, teaching yoga in practice and theory, attending retreats, following the lifestyle, diet etc...the whole thing.
As you can imagine, she hates it. She won't spare a chance to tell me how wrong I am, that I am worshipping the devil, inviting demons etc. And normally I am quite relaxed and can take criticism. But what she is doing actually makes my blood boil and causing my to react in ways I normally wouldn't, maybe it's because she is my mother and I feel deep rejection through her behavior.
Anyway, I believe there is a spiritual side to this. I was considering that her aggressive behavior (it has been like this since years and just getting worse) is caused by low-frequency entities and the attacks are very much directed to make me doubt my path, which I believed to be a path of light. It feels like some kind of warfare where my determination (spiritually I have been not always the firmest, especially when confronted) is tested.
Several people have told me to just cut the ties and move on, but I always get back and talk to her, especially if I have practical reasons like bringing her food, going with her to an appointment or the likes.
So I want the best for her, obviously. But it seems impossible with the negative attitude towards my core beliefs.
What do you make out of this?