SH and substance struggles
I gave my life to Christ about 9 months ago and with that gave up smoking and vaping, but I've really been struggling in my faith recently. I struggle with my mental health and can't get myself to call on God for help and keep wanting to go back to my old ways even though I know it'll just make everything worse, and recently have had thoughts of/tried to SH as a different way of dealing with my problems. Although my goal is to stay away from both, if I were to choose one, weed or SH, which would be better. Also if there are any tips on how to call to Jesus for help, that would also be much appreciated, and please don't just say "read your bible and pray" because although I know that what to do, I can't get myself to do it and when I do, it feels shallow and fake. Thanks!