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Give me grace, but just enough.
When I’m tired, don’t rush.
But if I’m tired and my body’s rested,
Don’t be the chest I lay my head on.
The rest I need isn’t found in sleep;
It is found in the rays of sun
Seeping through my window
On a Monday morning.
The sun that brings joy but also traps me in its warmth.
But please don’t lift me up,
Because then I must pray, and my pride’s louder than my hope.
Tap my shoulder.
Know I’m scared, not weak.
Know me.
That’s all you need to do.
Give me grace; don’t let me hurt you.

You have blue eyes
That are not crystal
But deep like the depths of the sea
So dark they could be black
But I don’t see wisdom
I see fear mixed with depth
Depth that crept and sat while you slept
I know it’s not easy
To have vision in your ears, mouth, nose
But no sight from eyes
Because they think you can’t see at all
But I see, the orcas swimming in your mind
Even if I can’t see through those blue-black eyes

A crushed lemon drop
Hard sweet and bitter all at once
Now just dust
Lemon drop

You should’ve just
stayed in the trees
But you were boiled
Hardened wrapped in plastic
For nothing
For nothing
For nothing

My cloudy coffee cup
I stir with a teaspoon
Dash of sugar
Splash of milk
I stir and stir

Black coffee
Bitter so bitter
But familiar
I used to drink
Black coffee

-My bed, my home,bus-
-I wrote, words I never saw
On borrowed crumpled paper
With a pen I found, on the footprint full ground
Down the corridor
One sock up, other sock down
Giggles in the hall
Entertained by my ignorance
School bells, time for class
Like a bomb
The clocks would tick
Tick-tick-tick
For eternity
Until school bells, time for home
Sweat stained, white shirt
Tugging at me
Bus, my house , my bed-

Home is a flower pot
If you do not tame the soil
The flowers will not grow
Yet I was not told this
So I continued to add seeds
And water the dirt
But all that grew was grass