Life literally just feels empty and pointless. I took yesterday off of work. I basically go through some intense waves of pure sadness. I’m talking with a doctor and going to therapy tomorrow. But why do I struggle like this? What is God actually trying to achieve in my life when I’m losing a ton of money from missing work. I can barely keep up with bills. I’m just exhausted.
Things in life just don’t feel right. I’ve been dealing with depression for several years now. I went to a doctor and am on anti depressants and just started taking some medicine for adhd.. Anyways, I’m just so tired of how my life is going. I just wish I could take a break for a while just to organize my personal life. On my weekends I’m so tired from the work week that I barely do anything. During the week I also don’t feel like doing much. It’s basically put my life in a stagnant place. I have so many things that I should be doing but don’t.. I’ve tried taking a few days off work here and there but it never helps. Plus my finances are not doing so well so I have to force myself to keep working.. then I have friends and family that have a child, and they take like 6 months off work. Why do some people get a break and others don’t? Does God enjoy unhappy struggling people? I don’t understand