Dealing with regret from surgery
Does the regret ever feel less heavy? This feels like the biggest mistake I’ve ever made and the regret and self blame is suffocating me… especially since I didn’t want the surgery but let them push me into it anyways. Surgery made everything so much worse for me and it doesn’t seem to be getting any better.
Everytime I eat I have pain and feel like shit which just reminds me of what a mistake this was since I didn’t feel like this before surgery. Everyone I know who has theirs removed recovered quickly and is back to normal, meanwhile I’m 3 months out (spent 3 weeks on a feeding tube) and feel way worse.
I’ve already had an MRI to rule out any post op issues & I am going to therapy, but man I cannot take the regret it’s crushing.