Is It Ok To Be Resentful If Older Parents Because Of Their Standards ?
With the stuff like I better get into blue collar right after highschool, shamed for working service jobs, even if I was really good at it,made money and felt comfortable. No it wasn't enough. I wasn't in places like Ford by 20 or machine shops or general hard labor for kinda being stunted by that age emotionally, socially, mentally and physically because I was ignored by my mother growing up, but expected to be her therapist by 12.
Sorry my message is all jumbled, mentally im still messed up in my mid 20's, but their expectations were. Especially during the early pandemic that I had to be this clean cut sober blue collar worker by 20 who put my head down, worked 50 hours a week, and if I wasn't that person I was just nothing. They criticized me for working service jobs since 17, comparing me to how people were in the 1980s in the 2020s era. These were people who didnt want to teach, but if I didn't know how to build a back deck by 23, im the butt of the joke, and it has put me in a significant depression to the point I figure why try anymore ? I mean I still live with them. I have money and give them rent and if they didn't care I won't still be living with them now and I can see that they cared in their own way, but they really wanted to put the standards of the past on me, alot of them they didn't even follow themselves but was expected out of me. So am I valid for how I feel and some of the resentment I have towards them or am I being the whatever. Because I will sit in my room and talk to myself about how their standards really fucked me up mentally and they will hear me through my door or will listen in, they dont get overly upset, but its about me liking them and catering to their insecurities why they shit on mine consistently. Idk if im even valid with how I feel because my family will call me weak just because I didn't rush into life like they did or have kids early ect.... I just dont know anymore.