I am currently in training to be a Protestant pastor, I am seriously questioning attending a catholic church.
I would like to preface my remarks by clarifying two key points:
My statements are not intended to endorse Protestant theology.
I am not seeking to challenge Catholic doctrine; rather, my objective is to ask about areas where I am struggling.
To provide some background, I have been engaged in pastoral training for the past three years. The primary issue that has led me to re-evaluate my personal convictions is the Eucharist. Over the last few years, my study of church history has revealed a substantial and clear body of support for the Catholic and Orthodox perspectives on divine presence and transubstantiation. Even Martin Luther, the father of the Protestant Reformation, firmly upheld the belief that communion constitutes the literal body and blood of Jesus. This has caused significant internal conflict, as I find myself strongly inclined to believe something divergent from my current church's teachings. This situation is distressing, as I am uncertain if I can continue within my church. I love my church and all the people God has entrusted me with. Nevertheless, I feel profoundly conflicted due to certain aspects of Catholicism that I find challenging. I would like to pose a few questions. My primary difficulty lies with the concept of the veneration of saints and of Mary. What is the most compelling argument, drawing upon church history and scripture, for this practice? From my understanding, there were disagreements regarding iconography in the early church (approximately 150-300 AD), and I am struggling to reconcile this with a biblical foundation. Furthermore, I do not fully grasp Catholic soteriology. My Catholic friends have provided rather ambiguous responses regarding the Catholic view of salvation, particularly concerning the interplay of works and grace. I understand that the Council of Trent formally rejected sola fide ; does this imply a salvation based on works? Despite these questions, I continue to question whether my current understanding is incorrect. I sense a compelling draw towards the Church, and I am questioning whether this feeling represents a genuine calling or personal emotions.
I would greatly appreciate any counsel you could offer.
I pray that the God of all peace blesses you abundantly.