u/False_Goat118

23M with no path or career to work towards. Everytime I start to think about a potential career or direction I may want to pursue, my mind tells me every which way it will go wrong and why I will fail. On top of that im recovering from an injury that required surgery so im feeling really down about myself. I've never had any true goals or aspirations besides the fact I want to make enough money to be independent and do fun things, I went to college for 1 semester after highschool and dropped out due to not knowing what to do and mental health issues, i'm not interested in a trade (not very handy) and the whole military thing doesn't seem like a great fit for myself. My whole family has had pretty successful careers and business ventures but none seem to want to help me besides letting me stay with them. I constantly watch everyone in my family receive funds for rent/tuition/groceries as well as internships with connections or job referrals, but when it comes to me everything is off the table. I have brothers who are getting close to "passing me" which in my mind just means graduating and finishing college and starting a career before me, which is absolutely killing me inside. I grew up in a extremely toxic environment that I recently escaped thinking my problems would be solved, but now im feeling much worse than I ever have. I don't understand who taught me to hate myself so much, I live my life with so much shame and regret at such a young age. I can feel myself slipping away more and more everyday. I don't have many ideas at this point, i've always worked retail, bar, restaurant jobs that I know I don't want my career to be and they require me to be able to walk which I can't do at the moment. Really really struggling at the moment. Anything will help.