Identity crisis
Dear Audhd community,
I hope you are all well and happy. I came here to ask for advice. May I ask how did you work out an identity crisis? I am 35 and I am realising a lot of things lately when it comes to masking and people pleasing... I am not quite sure who I am! It hit me hard when I realised that even when I am completely on my own I feel blank? Like, it went so far that I am masking even from myself ! I do not know what I want or what I actually like and how I feel. I feel so lost and confused, and that it shouldn't be that way. I know it is somewhere inside me but soon as any natural, first, (mine?) reaction, to absolutely anything, come out I push it down and I think what others expect from me in the first place then I adjust myself. I hope I explained in a way it makes sense and there is at least one person here who can relate... Where do I look for help? What helped you to find yourself and to start trusting yourself? I hate the fact that to be able to feel ok I need validation or confirmation from outside.. otherwise I just don't trust myself 😬