I wanna convert to Islam
hello , I am an atheist (nihilist) and thantophobia is ruining my mental health and life tbh. it has gotten so bad that I am unable to properly eat now.
I belong to a culturally muslim family, my parents are muslim just for the sake of it and my dad does not believe in afterlife
but I want to be a muslim seriously, very desperately, I am using an alt acc. I have no problems with Islam honestly, I think its the best among all religions. I can write an essay on it too but I want to be convinced about god or afterlife scientifically
Ik reddit isn’t the best place but my country isn’t a muslim majority one and there are not many muslims I can talk to. I tried talking to my father and my phobia got worse because he completely dismissed afterlife
i want to get some rest
i am being so serious
pls help me