u/Far_Assistance_6047

Some context of my situation. I (21 male) have been in school for music production, admittedly I’ve been struggling with classes and being on top of my assignments. I live with my mother and have been going to school while being supported by her. I used to have a job before this working at a local store and was just fed up with working a regular job, I wanted to get out of my small town and make it in a field of work I’ve been in love with for a long time but never felt the confidence of doing so. I’ve always been told to go to school and become something of myself, so I had to find who I actually was and wanted to be. I came across my school and fell in love with the dream. The support from my mother was short lived. I felt as if I was putting in a lot of hours trying to better myself in the field of music. This isn’t seen as enough from her point of view. Granted I end up skipping out on chores I forget to do and didn’t have a job at the time so I knew the day was coming where I would have to balance everything at once from supporting myself as well as doing what I love. I put in hours of work on personal music and usually stay up til late to work on fundamentals of music theory/production. I just recently got a job after being unemployed for some time (5-6 months) All throughout this time I’ve been scolded and told my work just isn’t enough for her. I’ve been told to change, this isn’t working or that I need to grow up. In my own head and what it feels like she’s implying is that I need to stop living in this fantasy world of making music and become like her. A stable 9-5 worker that is productive in other ways of life that just aren’t like me. I need to be her. I want this to work so badly but I just don’t know how to proceed. If anyone is interested or if this just isn’t the place to ask let me know. Open to all feedback.