It May 14th 2026, 15 after midnight. I haven't seen my wife, K in 972 days.
...and I chose you K. from now and for every moment from now. I will always choose you.
I was ready to give up. But my intuition stopped me. I can't give up, that would mean that you mean nothing to me, and that is just not true. you mean everything to me. You always have, and you always will. I will do what ever it takes to make sure you never have that happen again. I want to be there to protect you always.
I'm very, fuck it. I can't do this flower shit right now, I'm a wreck. I have been driven to the brink of madness and pushed to the limits of insanity by people surrounding me.
I don't know everything, you know that I never have. But I know what my heart and my gut are telling me.
Honestly, I laugh at some of it, some of it make me cry, and some of it makes me want to throw up.
But through it all I always come back to you.
In the beginning I just did what I thought you wanted. Which was to leave you alone. and then suddenly everything went to shit. Like the world literally went fucking nuts and just stopped making sense.
I guess that should have been my first clue. but I ignored it, I ignored all of it. To be honest I just didn't even notice the signs at first. I mean it was bizarre, but, the worlds always been a little bizarre.
But tonight at around 12:03 something in my brain clicked. and it all kinda fell into place.
I'm choosing you, I'm choosing me, and I'm choosing us. No more games. No more bullshit.
I asked you for this months ago. I meant it then. I mean it now. I just want to give you honesty and my heart. I just want you. I don't want any one else.
I never really have despite everything. I'd love to sit with you and have a conversation about it. no fighting, no arguing, no anger, or malice. Just to people that love each other more than anything trying to understand and see each other, completely. whole. for the first time. Even though I think you and I both knew it for the very first time we saw each other that there was something, not different, but the same. Because we're 2 halves of a whole.
And you know I'm a freaking Uber-nerd so I'm gonna quote the Klingon s here. Because I think this episode of Deep Space 9 nailed it.
STAR TREK: DEEP SPACE NINE
"You Are Cordially Invited... "
(fka "Once Upon A Wedding")
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Written by
Ronald D. Moore
Directed by
David Livingston
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STAR TREK:DS9 - "You Are Cordially Invited... " - 9/5/97 - CAST
STAR TREK: DEEP SPACE NINE
"You Are Cordially Invited...
CAST
SISKO ROM
KIRA NOG
ODO LEETA
BASHIR SIRELLA
DAX MARTOK
WORF ALEXANDER
O'BRIEN ATOA
QUARK
JAKE
Non-Speaking Non-Speaking
N.D. SUPERNUMERARIES
STAR TREK: DEEP SPACE NINE
"You Are Cordially Invited... "
(fka "Once Upon A Wedding")
#40510-531
Written by
Ronald D. Moore
Directed by
David Livingston
THE WRITING CREDITS MAY NOT BE FINAL AND SHOULD NOT BE USED
FOR PUBLICITY OR ADVERTISING PURPOSES WITHOUT FIRST CHECKING
WITH THE TELEVISION LEGAL DEPARTMENT.
Copyright 1997 Paramount Pictures Corporation. All Rights
Reserved. This script is not for publication or
reproduction. No one is authorized to dispose of same. If
lost or destroyed, please notify the Script Department.
Return to Script Department FINAL DRAFT
PARAMOUNT PICTURES CORPORATION
September 5, 1997
STAR TREK:DS9 - "You Are Cordially Invited... " - 9/5/97 - CAST
STAR TREK: DEEP SPACE NINE
"You Are Cordially Invited...
CAST
SISKO ROM
KIRA NOG
ODO LEETA
BASHIR SIRELLA
DAX MARTOK
WORF ALEXANDER
O'BRIEN ATOA
QUARK
JAKE
Non-Speaking Non-Speaking
N.D. SUPERNUMERARIES
and with that I'm ordering an Uber home, I'm gone need some help. Please.
I need the other half of my heart that was tempered with wisdom.
I don't know where you are but I can't do this with out you any more.
I'm gonna go work on cleaning up my room, but my back and knees is pretty fucked right now. and I'm tired. and I want nothing more than to just see you.
Don't make me wait. You know EXACTLY where I am.
I know nothing about what you have or haven't been doing. not really.
But I really hope my intuition is right, my heart says it is.
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Your farmboy, J