The Fae who taught me pleasure
Thought I would share a life changing experience I had many years ago which I now understand to be a visit from the Fae.
I was walking along on the beach on one of the Great Lakes (smoking a little weed but I’m a heavy user so what happened next was still highly unusual) when I grew suddenly very tired. I lay down on a sandbank and began to feel like I was hallucinating. I thought at first the trees were talking to me as they whispered and giggled. Whenever I’ve talked to the Fae since, Tree spirits are always involved. I could tell some spirit was there so I told them what was on my mind- my sexuality. I’m a queer kinky person and I was young and feeling guilty trying to figure myself out. When I explained this they laughed and laughed at me. Not in a mean way but in sort of “oh honey” kind of way. They told me that sexuality was meant for pleasure and if I was distressed about it- I was doing it all wrong. “Humans make even the most pleasurable things distressing” they snickered. At this point I felt kind of paralyzed like I couldn’t move. It was a little bit like sleep paralysis. I felt totally awake but couldn’t move. I began to feel pleasure rise inside me and I spontaneously orgasmed without touching myself. “Wasn’t that fun?” They asked. I “came awake” and felt astounded. How did that happen? I thought, that was weird maybe that was a dream?? NO they said, they were still there. And once again I became drowsy and overcome and I was brought to orgasm again without touching myself. They wanted to show me that pleasure was inherent to our bodies and I didn’t need to involve my mind so much. At that point I knew something unusual was happening. I thanked them (didn’t know any better) and the whole experience was truly healing and something I’ll never forget. I came to understand that sexuality is fundamentally a blessing- it’s only humans that turn it into something dark, guilty and tortured.
Anyway it was 15 years later before I understood what happened. I’ve had other experiences but that was one I’ll never forget!! Thought I would share for anyone who might benefit from their wisdom :)