will be voiding
not ready for my 5/30 test (haven't even finished practice/CR), lower FLs, but I've already postponed 3 times. parents need me to take it cause I'll never be ready even tho I told them ik im gonna retake right after and pointlessly spend $700 for the retake/study materials (im on FAP rn). i think there is still time left to reschedule but they said im taking it and i already told them id do it. they also tell me "i can do whatever i want" but it was so so hard studying for this test previously with them distressed/reminded of my mistakes of delaying. id ignore it but still tend to be discouraged. ik if i dont take it next week at least, then that cycle will repeat. I get their frustrations ive studied way longer than others (over a year) and honestly wasn't always disciplined or consistent so Ik I did it to myself. But luckily i do have hope i could do better in the retake. It's still worth taking just for the experience right? i do sometimes have test anxiety issues so maybe it will help?