Having to lose interest for someone that made you feel chosen is hard.
Well this is just a little rant and imma go head a apologize for my grammar because imma be typing fast hehe.
So about 4-5 months back I was rly rly depressed and lonely, I had no one I talked to no one and felt pretty bad. So I decided to try a yth group nearby just to see what happens. First time there was great I made a couple guy friends and I felt fine just fine. After a couple times going there was this girl I started to like more and more. She was Asian and had only been in America for a year and her English wasn't very well but I still rly liked her and after a month or so she started talking to me a lot and we became decent friends (not great) and she was the shy type she didn't talk to much anyone except her female friend and she was super quiet. I started to think about her a lot during the week, daydreaming and shi started to happen because I'm a weirdo. More and more each week whenever I talked to her I thought about her more and more. I see myself very low I'm depressed so yuh but anyways I didn't wanna try and think that she liked me but even someone like me could tell she probably liked me. She came up and talked to me a lot, I'll sometimes see her looking at me and she laughs a lot when she's with me and she feels comfortable ish idk and two other girls there liked me so ig it would make sense. I'm not saying she did like me but I'm saying she may. And tonight she approached me and started talking. And just for some context she looks kinda young like about 15, she's short and has small hands and stuff, she's just a rly small girl. I was kinda worried she was younger I mean im 16 so tonight when I talked to her I decided to ask her age and....... She said 19 😭🙏 I'm 16 btw. I felt down and stupid at the same time so I decided to ask multiple people how old she looks and everyone said 15-16 so it wasn't me just being delusional. So yeah that was a awkward situation and it's not my fault nor hers for liking someone younger/older. On her end she looks 15-16 and on my end ppl often think I'm 18plus bc I'm 6'2 which is somewhat tall for my age. So yeah It feels a bit weird and awkward but for me it feels more of like what now? I mean this is embarrassing to admit but I've never had a female even as a friend and she was kinda one of the first. I don't get out to much I mean my school is online. And I'm sure I'll find someone in the future or atleast I hope. But I ty for reading all this bullshit and lmk what you think, just a little rant.