u/Feeling_Upstairs5133

I want to warn people about PSSD but at the same I don't want the posibility of preventing someone from taking antidepressants if they really need them. I have the worst OCD and I worry about the knock of effect my words have on people. I warned my art class of 37 people about PAWS and PSSD, about tapering safely and seeing a doctor because i dont want people to make the same mistake i did. I felt the need to tell as many people as possible out of pure love and to saves someone's life, but I didn't think it through. And I know it was a OCD compulsion to tell everyone, even tho i knew it was off topic. But now I am scared of the bad posibilities i think of in my mind will happen to someone. I really can't rest and relax. I can't stop worrying.

I try and reassure myself they will eventually find out about PSSD anyway, that its going to become more well known. And that my country is going to have the warning put on the label.

I really just don't want to cause someone to be scared. I don't want to prevent people from taking antidepressants or cause someone to come off if they really need them to function. But at the same time I want to prevent people from going through what we are going through because I don't wish this disorder on my worst enemy

I said straight after that antidepressants saved my life and helped me. And they help others so i wasnt protesting against it

I feel like such a bad person and I wish i never spoke up about it now, because I know what my mind is like. I know that I overthink and now this is going to cause me to spiral into overthinking. I'm doing it now.

Not only that but ive now alienated myself from my art class. They probably think I am mad. Some people think I am a bad person spreading fear and misinformation. I don't know if i want to switch uni's now and be closer to my family.

Im not even worrying that I have PSSD anymore I am just worrying about the ripple of effect my words might have on others like the butterfly effect if you've heard of that term. I am holding myself too much responsibility

There are people on social media with a high influence that spread the word about PSSD and many many people see it. But I would be so afraid of doing that myself because I don't want to scare the erong people or cause someone to come off if they need them to live.

I hate overthinking so much and sometimes I wish life wasn't so complicated and complex sometimes because it wrecks with my head so much...

The thing that started this trigger was that my friend messaged me that he'd be dead withobut his medication, that he'd hate for one of his friend to be scared and come off them and be put in danger. This message has caused me to spiral because i didnt think of this posibility at the time. Now I am scared of having responsibility for someone's death. That's what worries me the most

What if something bad happens to one of the people in my class in the future and it will be my fault? And people in my class will put the blame on me?

I didnt try to spread any fear. I said that people can recover from this disorder too. I just wanted to make people aware and not make the same mistake i did of tapering too fast.

I feel as if I have dementia, I get lost forget things immediately cant form proper sentenses and delayed reactions and having to ask people to repeat things all the time. I Lose things so easily. I feel afraid and lost and its getting worse. I cant understand concequenses of things and I keep speak without thinking and regret it later. I feel very afraid of whats going on in my head. I feel restless and bored 24/7. I would wander anywhere outside and get lost because i am bored and alone I dont think to check the maps on my phone. I overspend my money without realising and overall I just feel afraid and expremely confused. I dont know if i can do another year of University, i really am struggling to learn.

My hands keep shaking, i keep trembling. I cant rest or relax. I dont know what to do with myself. I am so alone and scared. I dont want to end up in a psych ward and be put on more medication.

I warned my class about PSSD, there are 37 people in my class and i had some bad reactions. I am scared i have cause fear in my class and put people off antidepressants as they have the ability to save lives. I told people about tapering safely, and I said that medicstion save lives and that pssd is rare. I have this fear at the back of my head that ive caused more harm than good and I didnt think of that possible concequences when I shared this. I have bad OCD. I am so afraid I only meant good intentions to save peoples lives as i dont want anyone to go through this

I want this to go away. I am just getting more confused and scared. I keep acting out of fear and saying the wrong things and embarrasing myself and thrill seeking. I keep on embarrassing myself

I need support but my family dont understand. They don't even take me seriously because of my OCD

I desperately just want to find a small amount of joy and rest but nothing is giving me that. I cant find any relief

While i have this i also have Chronic Rhino sinusistus. I am scared that what if this coulf be a brain infection as i have lived with this for 11 years. I get double vision and intense headaches. My surgery for this is coming up soon on the 14th of july for this first time.

I dont know what to do

I have this horrible condition called PSSD. Its where all emotions are blunted during or after stopping antidepressants. I have lived with this for 1 year and I am scared because some people are stuck like this for years or decades later. I was on SSRI (Sertraline) for 4 years and I tapered down and came off at 12.5mg, thinking that was the lowest dose. But didnt know you had to taper all the way down to 1mg. The doctors never checked up on me while I was on the meds. Its medical negligance... im only 22

I am unable to find any joy in things

All my emotions have been numbed

I am uninterested in people

I struggle to feel love 😔

I have constant headaches

I'm chronically fatigued

I have been struggling to make friends

Brain fog

Forgerfulness

Lack of creativity

Change in appearance

Loads of other side effects

I was a different person before I started these meds. I feel like they have cursed my life. This feels satanic

I used to be so close to my younger sister. She told me since I got on SSRIs i have become a different person. Its hard for me to hang out with her because I literally have to fake my emotions! It breaks my heart. I feel nothing!

Im an artist, ive always wanted to be an artist. And now making art has been so hard, and all my creativity has been so dampened

Ive been in so much distress

I need prayers and help

Ive been praying all the time and God is the only thing that has helped me to get through this hellish condition

What else can I do?

I have pssd symptoms but at the same time i am able to sometimes have moments when I feel music, it comes and goes in waves. But I am always crying all the time and getting emotional, its making my family fed up of me.

Here are a list of my symptoms

• lingering headaches
• muscle pain
• twitching at night when I get brief waves of emotions I forgot about
• crying all the time
• constantly anxious
• chronic tiredness
• diarrhea
• nausea
• stomach issues
• emotional blunting
• difficulty to orgasm, weak orgasms. Masturbation feels like a chore
• anger, irratability
• obsessive thinking
• struggling to relax, restless
• emotionally blunted
• confusion

How are we supposed to know if we have PSSD or protracted withdrawl? I want to know I am getting better because I dont want to be stuck like this.

I was on SSRI's zoloft (sertraline) for 4 years. I weaned down slowly over 2 years and came off at 12.5mg, thinking that was the lowest dose possible. The doctors never checked up on me in the years i was on them, not even once. They never warned me about how to taper properly. 4 months after stopping I went back on them for 2 weeks when my OCD got too bad for me. I started at 50mg for the first 3 days because that was all I had (i cut 100mg tablets in half) and it made me very dozy. I then went to 12.5mg when I found my 25mg tablets and stayed on that for 2 weeks. Ever since april I've been struggling. I started my first year of uni and ive not been able to make friends. I am anxious and agitated every day, I dont know what to do with myself.

Two girls from my Uni asked if they wanted to go shopping with me and i tagged along with them but I was so blunted throught it and I knew they sense something is seriously off with me. I cant stand this. They are really nice people and I just want to form a connection with them but I have to fake all my emotions and I seem so uninterested and sarcastic... i feel like a freak and i just want my old self back

I put myself through things with men i would never had allowed myself to go through if i wasnt on those meds. before I knew what PSSD was I knew I felt completely empty. I was seeking out to feel something, anything. I was 19, 20 and 21. I lost my virginity at 19 I didnt know why I felt nothing, i didnt know why normal sex wouldnt arrouse me anymore.

At 20 i got myself with this perverted much older man while i was visiting my sister in australia for 2 months. He was 29 years older than me... He was into BDSM and I thought it would make me feel aroused and i started to use it as a way to feel something. I would take substances with him like laughing gas, MDMA, because i wanted to go through something intense. Because I would put myself through intense situations where I would lack control, and was led by what was happening. Non of this worked, and it would make me feel more empty inside and frustrated, and numb.

When I got home i seeked out for it again with another man, much older again. he had a dungeon and would try different things. I felt no attraction to him and still couldnt feel aroused which was frustrating me. I know if i wasnt on these meds i would never have put myself through all of that, it would've even deeply troubled me. I look back now and I feel so sad about it.

I worry that these meds can cause people to seek out intense situations to feel something. Even things that will cause harm. It only causes more damage. Please, be careful of this side of PSSD and dont make the kind of mistake I did of seeking thrills. Pornogeraphy is very damaging, dont use it as a compulsion to find what can arrouse you. This condition is very iscolating and I am sorry we all are going through this

I keep listening to random music that captures emotions. Its like i am constantly searching out to feel something, to feel human again. But at the same time, i zone out to music so easily and i would listen to songs compulsively to be in my own world. Sometimes i would forget what i am listening too when I zone out. While i started sertraline i got so obsessed with spotify (i made over 2,000 playlists) of songs i catagorise and link songs to different feelings or about something. Looking back i realise what was going on and what I was doing. Its very sad after finding out about PSSD

I want this to go away, i feel so stuck. I went off my SSRIs slowly in december 2024 after being on them for 4 years. I started at 17 because of OCD. after i came off in June i started to feel more like myself, music was amazing to listen too and things felt more real. But in august my emotions got too intense to deal with and my OCD got really bad. I fell into a scary familiar hole i fell in when I was 17. I was really scared to be back in that place again. I was like hell no not again so I went straight back on 50mg in July, it was the only ones i had with me at hand then after a few days and it made me so incredibly hazy for a day. Then I went on a smaller dose, 25mg when i was able to get some. That was for two weeks i was on them for then went off after everything calmed down. I moved to uni in september and I cant express how much ive been struggling... ive not been able to make any friends here. i cant even form proper sentenses and conversations properly. I zone out all the time. Its like how i felt for those 4 years i was on them but worse. I just want to feel like myself again but its been 9 months. In april i also took just one 15mg pill one night when i got really anxious then decided maybe not a good idea to go back on them. i feel nothing most of the time. Im studying art and its something ive always wanted to do since i was little. Its so messed up that they dont warn about these kind of side effects. I think i might be weirding people out when I talk because im so zoned out, i pause mid sentenses and i cant listen and i hate it. I just didnt know these meds would do this to me... 😕 i need some hope that things will get better. I only just found out about PSSD this week and im realising i might have it but I dont know. It feels like im stuck behind a glass wall and everyone else is on the other side