Pulsing
I've known about Astral Projection and Lucid Dream since I was 12. Never actually managed to AP but last night it I think I almost did it to the extent that I decided to write this post because I need soem guidance.
I went to bed at around 1am and played some ASMR in my headphones to relax. Woke up close to 3am, turned off the headphones and went back to sleep.
Dozed of but when my consciousness came back I felt familiar pulsing. It is not a sound, it is not physical it is pulse that I can feel, I can't describe it as hurtful bit it is not a nice feeling either. It's like a ticking clock but you don't want another tick to hit. It happened to me before but I can't ever get through it. I never got to this state without using consciousness prior to this pulsing state.
I normally have to stop and go to sleep but this time I decided to get through it. I stopped feeling my body and I felt like I am in a tunel, it was invisible but I felt the barrier. I pushed with my "body" on it and it flet like dragging a car on a wall. The pulsing got faster and faster.
I saw changing colours, scenes and even the world made of black and yellow numbers like in a matrix but more pixilated. At some point I think I felt I am somewhere above and started to see the bed below me "rendering" or emerging from dark but then I lost consciousness.
After this I had some very vivid dreams
Can someone tell me what this pulsing is? How do I get to this state consciously?
Does ant of this sound familiar to others, I want to finally start to AP more often and I wonder if I can use my experience as a starting block.