When do I get my merit badge for my suffering
Fuck this fucking life and world.
I suffer all fucking day in and out but because my illness is internal (for now I guess, extreme nerve issues in my face and neck) I get zero credit. All I get are people thinking I'm lazy and stupid and volatile. I see people getting so much more than me, so much more credit for a fraction of the suffering I experience on a day to day basis. Best part is I take the pain all day every day, so I can't work normally on other things and can't concentrate on anything so I'm outwardly extremely weak despite fighting a war within. I swear to god everyone who doesn't deal with chronic pain or illness just laughs in your face and tells you they have things just as tough, when if they had to deal with even 1% of what you face they would break down almost immediately. FUCK THIS SHIT.