Getting angry, agitated, and annoyed if I do not go to the gym everyday and miss it. How to cope? Especially with possible signs of body dysmorphia?
I typically try to follow a Push-Pull-Leg routine 6x a week + on my rest day will throw in either a more core or cardio-focused day and usually spend 2-4 hours per day in the gym.
Recently due to work, a workout injury and now food poisoning, I have only been to the gym 3x this week and it's pissing me off. My strength is a lot less as I'm still recovering from a really bad case of food poisoning that gave me a fever, diarrhea, and headache. I tried gyming yesterday with those conditions by doing a push day and my bench press dropped in reps! I usually do 205 lbs for 6-7 reps and last night I could only do 205 lbs for 4 reps.....
I can feel the weight building on me from not burning the same amount of calories I usually do.
I need to go to the gym everyday for the duration as it allows me to eat the way I want and build strength and muscle and these last two weeks it went from 6-7x in the gym to only 3-4x and I am beginning to get pissed the f off!
It's gotten to the point where I lowkey wish I could be by myself and not have work, friends or family that would take time away from the gym or distract me
It's getting to the point where assuming that I am mostly recovered from my injury and food poisoning, I already planned out a double a day workout plan for 7-days next week to make up for the lack of calories burned during my normal routines as I am going on vacation in 9 days from now.
Over the past 12-months, I went from 153 lbs to 156 lbs but even though its only 3 lbs, I feel like my stomach, gut and face have gotten bigger in the mirror. I feel like I have never been on a calorie deficit since like 2 years ago and there's been many days I know I arte more than I burned!
The reason I gym so much is 2 years ago I use to weigh 187 lbs and over the course of 3.5 months, began taking the gym seriously and worked out everyday for the 3.5 months for 4-6 hours a day (Usually 2.5 hours of resistance + 1.5 to 3 hours of cardio split into two workout sessions) and dropped down to 149 lbs. Even during a car accident and tendonitis on my wrist and ankles I still went to the gym everyday.
Does anyone ever feel annoyed to a similar level when life affects your workout plans? Are you not concerned about the possible weight gains and loss of muscle and strength gains? It's getting to the point where vacations stress me out because it's extremely hard to follow my similar workout routine (intensity and duration) while on vacation and other than walking a lot, I can only really spend 1-1.5 hrs a day IF I am lucky but obviously when it comes to vacations, we tend to eat more than we should but it gets to the point where all I am mentally thinking about are calories? "Oh, a cheesecake slice, welp that's 400 calories minimum, so there goes my 90-minute gym session" "Oh, going to All you can eat Wagyu tonight, better gym for 3 hours and not eat anything" "One slice here, 100 calories, this piece here, 300 calories" etc etc...
Is there any advice to better fix my schedule or change my mindset because it use to be enjoyable but now its getting stressful and frustrating