u/Few_Resolution7965

First of all, I don't recommend this to people with functioning brains. I'm naturally cognizant of my own MH issues. As to how to go insane: stare at the wall for a minute or five, emptying your brain out until there's nothing left of it. I go crazy whenever I do that at the same time I treat it as some meditation for the brain. It makes me feel like I'm high enough to study, which I don't do quite often. Girl, I don't even know how to study properly or how top students do it. I don't even study that much in the first place. I just show up and carry the #yolo.

Coffee makes me feel sleepy so I drink it on the verge of going insane. As much as possible, I prepare my tools (notes, calcu, pens, etc.) so I won't talk and shout to myself. My goal is to go insane then study, not to go insane and literally never go sane again. I do use my phone still but only for taking selfies. Why, god forbid a woman wants to post her #studying sessions on her IG.

I joined a small church group because a friend kept inviting me to their weekend activities.

After a few weeks, people started asking if I could help with little paid jobs outside the meetings. Setting up chairs for events, driving older members to appointments, helping someone move boxes, cleaning up after gatherings.

Most jobs paid $20 to $50, usually cash.

It slowly turned into an extra $200 to $300 a month just from people in the group recommending me to each other.

I originally joined because I knew one person there. Somehow I ended up becoming the guy everyone calls when they need an extra pair of hands.

I always remind my self it’s okay to suffer for awhile than suffering for a lifetime… This is what motivates me the most before even thinking of studying. Of working hard in general. If I’m being honest, it drives me to get work done in such an odd way.

It sounds kinda pointless if you think about it. Or maybe a waste of paper. But I do not think they are.. besides, the very point of this is for you to remember. It’s like a hand slapping you on both cheeks that you really have to take your life seriously. You’re in college. You’re big now. Don’t just go on dilly-dallying.

I actually print these pictures out when I have the time and write a short note on its back just to make sense of it. Hell, it feels good.

Definitely going to make an archive from these someday…