I want to live, but not like this.
I know yall have lived and heard this before, but I guess I need to shout into the void.
I’m so tired of living like this. I’m so tired of being in pain and getting the run around by insurance and doctors. I’m so tired of having to pay my entire tiny paycheck for physical therapy from a specialist. I’m so tired of being tired. I’m tired of being forced to work because I’m too young for disability.
I just found out I have MCAS and interstitial cystitis. That means a giant change to my diet that I can’t afford and don’t have the energy or spoons to cook for.
I am lucky to have a wonderful partner who helps as much as he can, but I feel guilty for being such a financial burden.
Ugh, I just feel very low and like I would be better off in another place. I want to live, but I’m so tired.